Wee Willy Winkie wrote:detritus, dont you think you'd be somewhat alienating yourself from the blokes your working with if you go home every night?? just a query.
Possibly, possibly not. I guess I just want to know if the option for a regular soldier to go rent a place privatley or through army itself or whatever is a possible one.
I have no major problems with sharing living space, but I just like to know that IF I needed to I could take a step back and get some space, so to speak.
Like if I was in a living quarters that had smokers I would not like it- I am allergic to cigarrette smoke and the slightest odour of it makes me sick. I can handle it outside but not indoors near me. A lot of my family smoke/d and when I was living under the same roof it was terrible.
This then makes me really angry. My neighbours above me smoke on the balcony a few feet away from me, drop cigarette butts by the dozen and drop their ash onto my yard sofa and pavement. The stench gets into my home everywhere but doesn`t get out quickly- For some reason this makes me really rageful. I have done my best to keep my cool with people like this because I don`t want a criminal record messing up my chances for enlistment.
I could not live with or around smokers, I can handle people who I might not get on with during work but to be around them 24/7 would be very trying.
I am just looking at worst case scenario, if worst comes to worst I would like the piece of mind that I could "escape" after work "home".
I usually get on with most people, even ones who piss me off. I get mad but I am quite diplomatic and I don`t tend to hold grudges. (I could be real mad with someone and have an argument with them and then 5 minutes later I would be over it and back to normal.)
When I was a teenager I would be everyday, every moment with my friends- even though we`d piss each other off often and such. Then I went through some bad times where I was alone a lot and desperatley bored and lonely. Sometimes weeks would pass and I wouldn`t see or speak to another human being. For the longest time now I have spent most of my time alone, and mostly I have hated it.
One of my strongest reasons to try and appeal against the rejection and enlist IS to become part of a team, a family of sorts, the good, the bad and the ugly. Not just like any other work team, but one that I can rely on with my life, and one that I would fight and die for...and endure hours of trudgery and boring tedious tasks..
You see ideally I would live in, thats what I want. But to go from living on my own, in my own place for years to moving out and having to lose my home and starting a whole new life is scary.
I wish I had done this when I was 17 or something- when there was still a family home to go back to. Having moved out and having my own place makes it that bit harder. Since it wasn`t easy to get my own place at all, and I was in a way lucky that it is what and where it is. Its got many problems, but it is MUCH nicer than anything else I would have got.
I guess I am just one of those people who feels teh need to look at worst case scenario- and find out what the options woud be in such a case. Once I have that assurance I am happy enough to go back, put it in the back of my mind and get on with it just like everybody else. Do you see?
Like I said, it is not easy or possible even to understand what someone is about from a few posts on an internet forum. Plus I am rapidly approaching the upper age limit.
I want IN the military brotherhood. So to speak.
DETRITUS.