Langarotti - 'The reason why I'm back'
Posted: Tue 16 Mar, 2004 9:14 pm
Hi everyone, sorry for the delay but I've been busy sorting things out e.g. trying to find a temporary job, argueing with parents over keep and the whole 'You wanted to leave home and now your back, so what are you going to do now' thing.
The first two weeks I found very tough, just basically adjusting to responsibilties of having to look after so much kit etc. For a young 16 year old it was quite a culture shock.
Towards the end of week 3 I developed a severe chest infection with asthma like symtoms e.g shortness of breath, constriction in chest coughing up mucus etc. I saw the MO who told me that my body was reacting to the new types of stresses and strains I was putting through. Anyway I was put on light duties for the last two days of the week, couldnt do phyz or drill for families day, (told my mum; dont bother coming down) spent two days at home, not feeling much better.
Back at camp the team said that if I didnt go on Ex 'Early night' I was to be back trooped (Our troop 870, had got off to a great start training team had been impressed so far and our PTI was very pleased also, the thought of getting back-trooped was not pleasant!).
So despite feeling like crap I went on Early Knight and strangely I felt better, it was good to be out there soldiering with the troop again. After the ex I thought wah hay! I'm back in business. However on the Friday I felt even worse than before the same symptoms but this time with shivering and light-headedness. Went to see MO again and he said I was having a relapse and all he could do was give me a stronger dose of anti-biotics and put me on light duties again.
At this point I felt crushed, I saw any sought of career I might have in the marines slipping away. Come Monday the team said that I was in no condition to go on ex 'Quick cover' which included 'wet and dry' through the night, so they said I would have to be back-trooped.
At this point I made the decision that I very much regret, the illness certainly didnt help. Anyway I told trp, sergeant I wanted to opt. out, saying that it was clear I wasnt going to get through condition if I carried on like this and I didnt want to join another troop, they tried to convince me to stay, my cpl said I had the potential of making a good marine, which was really sound of him because he didnt have to say anything.
Anyway I remained stubborn because I was feeling terrible, I then went to see the company OC who agreed to opt me out but told me to come back when I was ready. So that was that then, I spent the next four days feeling just as shitty and handed all my kit back in. Saw my oppos for the last time just as they were deploying to Woodbury. Felt very sad to be leaving such a great bunch of lads, however at this point in time I was feeling so bad I just wanted to leave camp.
Anyway now back at home still not fully recovered, I have to go the asthma and allergy clinic on Friday for the THIRD time to confirm I dont have asthma.
Well that's me, I'm now back at home feeling very depressed and annoyed. Have been arguing a'lot with the parents about which direction I'm going now.
I still want to be a Royal marine, however I am concerned that by simply jumping back in, the same thing will happen as before and there will be a repeat performance.
Now I'm wondering to myself, by waiting until I'm 20 when I would be 'fully grown'; will my body be able to cope with the demands more readily 4 years down the road?
I'm not sure what I should do at the moment, and if I did go for the latter option, what would I do in the meantime?, I need to get out of the house that's for sure.
The very best of luck to all the lads starting basic soon, as I know there are quite a'lot of you. Be warned it will be a big shock, I hope you take the challenges in your stride and that you are able to cope.
As for me, I'm looking for as much advice as possible at the moment so any is warmly appreciated.
I'm 17 next month, but want to find direction. I've been thinking of trying to find overseas work, just to try and get away from it all.
But at the end of the day I still want to be a Royal marine and thats why we are all here.
All the best
Jack
The first two weeks I found very tough, just basically adjusting to responsibilties of having to look after so much kit etc. For a young 16 year old it was quite a culture shock.
Towards the end of week 3 I developed a severe chest infection with asthma like symtoms e.g shortness of breath, constriction in chest coughing up mucus etc. I saw the MO who told me that my body was reacting to the new types of stresses and strains I was putting through. Anyway I was put on light duties for the last two days of the week, couldnt do phyz or drill for families day, (told my mum; dont bother coming down) spent two days at home, not feeling much better.
Back at camp the team said that if I didnt go on Ex 'Early night' I was to be back trooped (Our troop 870, had got off to a great start training team had been impressed so far and our PTI was very pleased also, the thought of getting back-trooped was not pleasant!).
So despite feeling like crap I went on Early Knight and strangely I felt better, it was good to be out there soldiering with the troop again. After the ex I thought wah hay! I'm back in business. However on the Friday I felt even worse than before the same symptoms but this time with shivering and light-headedness. Went to see MO again and he said I was having a relapse and all he could do was give me a stronger dose of anti-biotics and put me on light duties again.
At this point I felt crushed, I saw any sought of career I might have in the marines slipping away. Come Monday the team said that I was in no condition to go on ex 'Quick cover' which included 'wet and dry' through the night, so they said I would have to be back-trooped.
At this point I made the decision that I very much regret, the illness certainly didnt help. Anyway I told trp, sergeant I wanted to opt. out, saying that it was clear I wasnt going to get through condition if I carried on like this and I didnt want to join another troop, they tried to convince me to stay, my cpl said I had the potential of making a good marine, which was really sound of him because he didnt have to say anything.
Anyway I remained stubborn because I was feeling terrible, I then went to see the company OC who agreed to opt me out but told me to come back when I was ready. So that was that then, I spent the next four days feeling just as shitty and handed all my kit back in. Saw my oppos for the last time just as they were deploying to Woodbury. Felt very sad to be leaving such a great bunch of lads, however at this point in time I was feeling so bad I just wanted to leave camp.
Anyway now back at home still not fully recovered, I have to go the asthma and allergy clinic on Friday for the THIRD time to confirm I dont have asthma.
Well that's me, I'm now back at home feeling very depressed and annoyed. Have been arguing a'lot with the parents about which direction I'm going now.
I still want to be a Royal marine, however I am concerned that by simply jumping back in, the same thing will happen as before and there will be a repeat performance.
Now I'm wondering to myself, by waiting until I'm 20 when I would be 'fully grown'; will my body be able to cope with the demands more readily 4 years down the road?
I'm not sure what I should do at the moment, and if I did go for the latter option, what would I do in the meantime?, I need to get out of the house that's for sure.
The very best of luck to all the lads starting basic soon, as I know there are quite a'lot of you. Be warned it will be a big shock, I hope you take the challenges in your stride and that you are able to cope.
As for me, I'm looking for as much advice as possible at the moment so any is warmly appreciated.
I'm 17 next month, but want to find direction. I've been thinking of trying to find overseas work, just to try and get away from it all.
But at the end of the day I still want to be a Royal marine and thats why we are all here.
All the best
Jack