When I was a child, from as long as I remember(4years old onwards) my mother has treated me like none should, she put me to sleep rough on the streets at just12 years old many times and then when i was 15/16 years old, I was more or less abandoned by my family, I was sent away from everyone I know to a foster home my parents did not want me anymore basically, as crazy as it sounds everything I say here is the truth. I was sent to the other side of the country eventually to live with a random family, and this was very upsetting obviously. I didn't get to see my friends or partner (who is still my partner to this day as well as the mother of my child) at all for a long time. I really don't want to make it out as if I am just feeling sorry for myself but a lot of very bad things happened to me, things no child/teenager should have to go through.
So, eventually I was underage drunk twice and had the not so great idea,I was arguing with her, I swallowed a handful of her sleeping tablets without thinking, just hoping she would give me a break.
I have no mental illnesses, I also have never had any mental health illnesses in the past either believe it or not.
In fact I have extreme mental strength as a result of my past growing up, I have not repeated anything like this since and I never will, I wouldn't even dare think about it now that I have my child and partner to look after, I was actually planning on giving all of my wages each week to my girlfriend to spend on our child so they have everything they need etc. It tears me apart that I most likely won't be able to do this for them both now, I feel I owe her absolutely everything for being the only one to ever stick with me through my difficulties.
I have a big problem now though, my past has come back to haunt me, I know that applying for the army ,your medical questionnaire will be rejected, if in your medical records you have self harmed or attempted suicide on more than two occasions. I cannot believe it you know that...is there any exception to this? I mean I am an adult now, I am almost 21 years of age, I dropped out of school at 15 due to family reasons, I am intelligent regardless but can not find any work where I live (I come the whole way from rural irish republic to join the British army...hoping..) so I decided to chase my dream I've had since very young, I don't mean to seem like I'm talking shit but I honestly feel there is no other career for me than the army, as if my whole life has been preparing me for it, I know that I am well physically and mentally capable, I have a family to look after now, these were all just stupid childish mistakes I made when I was younger and I have honestly never regretted anything as much in my life as I do right now, and never will.
Would it be worth my while writing a letter along with my medical questionnaire, to send back together, explaining all of this? The welfare of my family depends on this and I genuinely thought I could have gone far in this career but I think I stopped myself in my tracks, before I even got the chance to start. I guess I got dealt some real shitty cards.
I really hope this can still work out for me.
Sorry for sounding ridiculous at stages but I am just speaking the complete truth of it all, hopefully so it can sink in with you how serious it all is to me.
Any help is immensely appreciated.
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